Minggu, 25 November 2012
Sabtu, 24 November 2012
darkness
"what will you do if someone leave you in the dark?" - shock therapy
putrinidya
"darkness will never be long"
ladies and gentlemen
there is no eternity in this world. eventhough dark and alone, we still can do anything. we know we are like blind. we can't see anything. but we can feel something. i will take something. paper and pencil. what for? i will write and draw something. i will write what i feel when i am in the darkness alone. i will write my dreams, and one of it is i hope brightness will come soon. i believe in God, God will bring brightness. and God will show someone who will accompany me. and after brightening, i will meet someone who is given by God and i will show my writing and drawing. in my writing "God, please give me someone who will accompany me. and please give me the brightness. i will say to him that i love you. i believe in You, God. i trust you will give me the best for me and i hope he is you, i hope you will back to me again, darling". do you know who he is who come to me, to bring me, and show everything about life? he is my father.
yah, dad....i will say that i love you. please forgive me, i know i have many mistakes.
putrinidya
"darkness will never be long"
ladies and gentlemen
there is no eternity in this world. eventhough dark and alone, we still can do anything. we know we are like blind. we can't see anything. but we can feel something. i will take something. paper and pencil. what for? i will write and draw something. i will write what i feel when i am in the darkness alone. i will write my dreams, and one of it is i hope brightness will come soon. i believe in God, God will bring brightness. and God will show someone who will accompany me. and after brightening, i will meet someone who is given by God and i will show my writing and drawing. in my writing "God, please give me someone who will accompany me. and please give me the brightness. i will say to him that i love you. i believe in You, God. i trust you will give me the best for me and i hope he is you, i hope you will back to me again, darling". do you know who he is who come to me, to bring me, and show everything about life? he is my father.
yah, dad....i will say that i love you. please forgive me, i know i have many mistakes.
special dream
putrinidya
you have many dreams,
she has many dreams,
you and i have many dreams,
we have one special dream.
we know each other
eventhough we are different
but we complete each other
because you and i have made promise
i am here, beside you untill you are bored
i hope you never be bored
don't you remember our dreams
we want to do fusion, black and red
you and me, together
i want to see you, feel you, and touch you
i will be waiting for you
you take me to somewhere, someday
you have many dreams,
she has many dreams,
you and i have many dreams,
we have one special dream.
we know each other
eventhough we are different
but we complete each other
because you and i have made promise
i am here, beside you untill you are bored
i hope you never be bored
don't you remember our dreams
we want to do fusion, black and red
you and me, together
i want to see you, feel you, and touch you
i will be waiting for you
you take me to somewhere, someday
can see, can feel, but can't touch
putrinidya
morning brings me into the night
we meet everynight
i know we didn't have much time
2 days ago, yesterday, even today
you are there, but i am here
the sky is still blue
and the flower is still red
but tonight always black and dark
"i could see, i could feel, but i couldn't touch you", you said
please forgive me
i haven't visit you yet
i am here still struggle to can meet you
somedays, i will meet you
or maybe you want to take me
yah, you have made promise
"don't forget to take me with you somedays" i said
i wish you were here
you wish i was there
i miss you, and i know you miss me
i believe we will meet again there
morning brings me into the night
we meet everynight
i know we didn't have much time
2 days ago, yesterday, even today
you are there, but i am here
the sky is still blue
and the flower is still red
but tonight always black and dark
"i could see, i could feel, but i couldn't touch you", you said
please forgive me
i haven't visit you yet
i am here still struggle to can meet you
somedays, i will meet you
or maybe you want to take me
yah, you have made promise
"don't forget to take me with you somedays" i said
i wish you were here
you wish i was there
i miss you, and i know you miss me
i believe we will meet again there
you are creator and designer in yourlife
putrinidya-public speaking at alfalfa
"tok, tok, tok.....Assalamualaikum (2x)." i hear voice from outside.
"put....please open the door", my mother's voice.
i hurried went to my room and pretended to sleep.
my mother went to opened the door. "why does my daughter always do like that? she always doesn't want to open the door."
my mother called me and entered to my room.
"put, come on! you have to meet them. they are your aunt and your cousin."
"no mom, i don't want. i'm shy."
"come on, just a minute."
"no! i don't want."
ladies and gentlemen.
it was me. i was introvert person. I was shy. I became introvert person because the situation.
my father was grumpy person and seldom smile. he was over protective. he prohibited his children to played outside. my mother was housewife. she just supported everything what his children wanted.
my parents seldom talked with me. he didn't know about me, about my academic, and about my feeling. he just known earn a living. while my mother just accompanied and supported me. i never did heart to heart conversation with them.
since i was child. i always did everything myself. if i couldn't do it or i didn't understand, i had to look for the answer myself. i had to do everything perfectly, get the best and keep my family name. i had to be someone who always got achievement.
ladies and gentlemen.
be grateful, because you have parents who care you, support you, and show you all the best for you. but i? i had to do it myself. i had to choose and dicide everything to my future because they didn't have enough education to suggest me. my mother just support what i wanted. they had given me freedom to created my future.
one day, i got a problem.
"mom, i don't understand this lesson. please teach me."
"put, please forgive your parents because we can't teach you about your lessons. i just can accompany you and support what you want. you have to be independent. i will always support what will you do. You know that your mother just graduate elementary school, don't you? i just know a
little. you can ask your brothers and your sister."
"yes mom, i am going to ask them."
"maaass,, mbaa.....please teach me mathemetics."
i asked my second brother.
"mas, how the way to answer this question?"
"hmmmm,, just it? you can read previous page, must be this book has the way.this is the way. read! and do it!"
huft, i have read many times but i didn't understand.
after that i meet my sister to look for the answer.
"mbaa, how the way to answer this question?"
"is this? where is pen? and letter? take it!"
my sister teach me by yelling like she was mad.
after that, i try to read, and tried do it myself.
i try to solve my problem myself.
and do you know? I became more independent. i got achievement. i became the number one at the school, won mathematics competition, won cerdas cermat TVRI, and entered to good school in jakarta. Even i went to pare one year ago alone, never visited pare before, just bring bravery.
Ladies and gentlemen.
Your life is yours. You are designer and actor in yourlife. Try to change and move.
In the past, i was introvert person and just can “small smile”
Now, it is me, try to be extrovert person and more confidence and i can “smile”
But in the future, i will be confidence and can “big smile”
What about you? You have to out of the box. Change and move on. If you can think it, you can do it. do what you wanna do and get what you did.
"tok, tok, tok.....Assalamualaikum (2x)." i hear voice from outside.
"put....please open the door", my mother's voice.
i hurried went to my room and pretended to sleep.
my mother went to opened the door. "why does my daughter always do like that? she always doesn't want to open the door."
my mother called me and entered to my room.
"put, come on! you have to meet them. they are your aunt and your cousin."
"no mom, i don't want. i'm shy."
"come on, just a minute."
"no! i don't want."
ladies and gentlemen.
it was me. i was introvert person. I was shy. I became introvert person because the situation.
my father was grumpy person and seldom smile. he was over protective. he prohibited his children to played outside. my mother was housewife. she just supported everything what his children wanted.
my parents seldom talked with me. he didn't know about me, about my academic, and about my feeling. he just known earn a living. while my mother just accompanied and supported me. i never did heart to heart conversation with them.
since i was child. i always did everything myself. if i couldn't do it or i didn't understand, i had to look for the answer myself. i had to do everything perfectly, get the best and keep my family name. i had to be someone who always got achievement.
ladies and gentlemen.
be grateful, because you have parents who care you, support you, and show you all the best for you. but i? i had to do it myself. i had to choose and dicide everything to my future because they didn't have enough education to suggest me. my mother just support what i wanted. they had given me freedom to created my future.
one day, i got a problem.
"mom, i don't understand this lesson. please teach me."
"put, please forgive your parents because we can't teach you about your lessons. i just can accompany you and support what you want. you have to be independent. i will always support what will you do. You know that your mother just graduate elementary school, don't you? i just know a
little. you can ask your brothers and your sister."
"yes mom, i am going to ask them."
"maaass,, mbaa.....please teach me mathemetics."
i asked my second brother.
"mas, how the way to answer this question?"
"hmmmm,, just it? you can read previous page, must be this book has the way.this is the way. read! and do it!"
huft, i have read many times but i didn't understand.
after that i meet my sister to look for the answer.
"mbaa, how the way to answer this question?"
"is this? where is pen? and letter? take it!"
my sister teach me by yelling like she was mad.
after that, i try to read, and tried do it myself.
i try to solve my problem myself.
and do you know? I became more independent. i got achievement. i became the number one at the school, won mathematics competition, won cerdas cermat TVRI, and entered to good school in jakarta. Even i went to pare one year ago alone, never visited pare before, just bring bravery.
Ladies and gentlemen.
Your life is yours. You are designer and actor in yourlife. Try to change and move.
In the past, i was introvert person and just can “small smile”
Now, it is me, try to be extrovert person and more confidence and i can “smile”
But in the future, i will be confidence and can “big smile”
What about you? You have to out of the box. Change and move on. If you can think it, you can do it. do what you wanna do and get what you did.
Back to you.
Akar
putrinidya
aku tak ingin dilihat
biarkan aku tetap bersembunyi
di dalam tempat yang kotor ini
penuh dengan para gerombolan cacing
aku ingin hidup berguna
ku sadari keberadaanku
aku hanya ingin hidup dengan tenang
di tempat ini
menguatkanmu adalah cita-citaku
membuatmu tumbuh sempurna adalah harapku
aku ingin melihat indah bungamu,
serta merasakan manis buahmu
mendukung, menunjangmu cukup bagiku
mencari air dan mineral itu kewajibanku
hujan dan kemarau tak jadi halangan
bahkan aku siap menancap pada karang untuk melindungimu dari angin
aku ingin memenuhi kebutuhanmu,
masuk celah-celah kecil, ini keahlianku
tak menyerah adalah kelebihanku
batang membantuku menyalurkan air yang telah ku dapatkan
terima kasih batang,
kau tumbuh membesar
semakin besar dan kuat
dan aku harus lebih kuat dari kau
berat badanmu semakin besar,
buah dan bunga yang kau hasilkan semakin banyak
aku masih disini menguatkanmu
agar kau dapat berdiri tegak.
aku disini, hanya ingin menjadi akar
agar kau kelak jadi pohon yang besar dan kuat
meneduhkan sekitar, mencegah banjir,
dan pastinya membuatku bangga.
aku tak ingin dilihat
biarkan aku tetap bersembunyi
di dalam tempat yang kotor ini
penuh dengan para gerombolan cacing
aku ingin hidup berguna
ku sadari keberadaanku
aku hanya ingin hidup dengan tenang
di tempat ini
menguatkanmu adalah cita-citaku
membuatmu tumbuh sempurna adalah harapku
aku ingin melihat indah bungamu,
serta merasakan manis buahmu
mendukung, menunjangmu cukup bagiku
mencari air dan mineral itu kewajibanku
hujan dan kemarau tak jadi halangan
bahkan aku siap menancap pada karang untuk melindungimu dari angin
aku ingin memenuhi kebutuhanmu,
masuk celah-celah kecil, ini keahlianku
tak menyerah adalah kelebihanku
batang membantuku menyalurkan air yang telah ku dapatkan
terima kasih batang,
kau tumbuh membesar
semakin besar dan kuat
dan aku harus lebih kuat dari kau
berat badanmu semakin besar,
buah dan bunga yang kau hasilkan semakin banyak
aku masih disini menguatkanmu
agar kau dapat berdiri tegak.
aku disini, hanya ingin menjadi akar
agar kau kelak jadi pohon yang besar dan kuat
meneduhkan sekitar, mencegah banjir,
dan pastinya membuatku bangga.
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